Just Another day....

I'm the girl with the smile. I laugh uncontrollably and stay optimistic in every situation. This writing a blog thing is so new to me but for some reason i'm drawn to the aspect of recording my life.Waking up this morning the scariest thought came across my mind. You go your whole life always with a plan .  I pushed my parents to purchase a piano at the age of 5. I continued on my musical journey with the clarinet at the age of 10. Around that time I made the decision that I wanted to be a lawyer when I grew up. With this goal and my love for music I went on to high school to be the geeky, cute, smiling girl in the hall that everyone knew would go somewhere. Did I ever feel the pressure ...NO! I was 1st chair in my Marching band , played the piano in a jazz class,volunteered countless hours for the Palm Beach courthouse. It seemed like I was the poster child for a good girl. I was the teacher's pet, christian ,  that loved to go above and beyond. By my senior year I skated through knowing early on I was accepted into Florida State University and going to my dream school. So when did I change . When people say you truly find yourself in college they aren't kidding. I feel like such a  different person. I don't know if I still want to try and go to Law school and I haven't touched an instrument in 2 years . I grew up.  I think the scary thing is knowing I always had a plan I was going to volunteer, here, and do this in high school and go to this college but now that i'm just two years from graduating I've never felt so lost and scared at the same time. You start to question everything in your life. Am I cut out to go be a lawyer, will I get accepted anywhere, what will my life  turn out to be, will I always be alone, and countless others.  even though this  is scary for some reason its exciting to not know what to expect to not plan every moment of your life and to just go with the flow. and maybe that's why through every hurtle and trouble in my life  I continue to be the girl with the smile that laughs uncontrollably  and stays optimistic in every situation. I hope through this blog I can somehow  inspire other people to just enjoy life and SMILE.