Law School?

This is going to be a very short post. Last night at my Pre-Law fraternity meeting(Phi Alpha Delta) we had a speaker come in. The wonderful Circuit judge elect Josephina Tomayo came in and gave a very enlightening speech about her experience and journey to where she is today. Though her speech of  her Hispanic heritage and coming to this country and working hard  was inspirational and full of humor the one thing that stuck was her opening. she asked a very simple question, Why do you want to be a lawyer? Though it should be a question easy to answer, for me its honestly not. ever since I could remember I've wanted to be a lawyer  as a child maybe I could have come up with numerous reasons but in the point i'm at in my life right now I don't think I could come up with a really good answer. How do you go almost your whole life telling people that your going to do something with your life and at the most important point in your life to make this goal come true you have doubts.I don't know if i'm scared, worried i'll hate it or what but I've never thought of a plan B. sometimes I really want to scream at the top of my lungs .."GOD tell me what i'm supposed to do"! cause honestly i'm lost.who knows maybe i'll end up in law school, or maybe chasing a new dream, its weird to be me and have always had a plan for my life and at a crossroads not knowing whats ahead. I guess thats part of the ride huh? well after much thought and struggle I realized my answer. I  remembered that little girl full of joy and happiness telling people shes going to be a lawyer one day, not because she thought she would live in some fancy house or drive a nice car or even have money but because to her lawyers were helpers. they helped people who needed it and was their voice when it came to the law and doing the right thing. I find complete joy in helping people it makes me feel i guess important in some way.Becoming isnt my childhood dream its , because I don't believe dreams come true that's why they are called dreams. your goal may start out as a dream but sooner or later you come to the conclusion you cant live your life no taking part in it so its becomes a goal or the ribbon at the end of the finish line that you  have to get to and becoming a lawyer someday is a goal I got lost in but not know for sure its what I have to do because I need to have a voice, like I've always had whether it was through an instrument or singing I have to do it. with that.........All I have left to do is SMILE.